Sunday, July 31, 2011

Sunday Weigh in

Good morning blogging friends.  Today is my official weigh in. 

Last week: 181
Today's weight: 180.5
Pounds lost: .5
Total pounds lost: 23.5

Not happy about that but doesn't surprise me.  I ate fine this week but didn't workout very much.  So I didn't expect to see much lost.  At least I didn't gain any and at least the scale is still going down.

My monthly friend is also here so maybe I weigh a tad bit more anyway.  That's ok. 

This just means I need to get my workout butt in gear and get back in the grove this week of working out.

I was going to measure myself again just for an official measurement today but I can't find my measuring tape (I'm sure the kids have been playing with it).

Kids- let me talk about kids for a minute.  This has nothing to do with weight loss but I need to get it off my chest. 

I'm ready to start back to school, teaching.  I'm DONE staying home with the most bratty 4 year old I know.  He makes the most annoying bratty sounds and drives me up the wall.  Yes, I love him.  Yes, he can be sweet.  But lately I've been so sick of hearing him and so sick of being around him.  I'm ready to send him off to daycare so I don't have to hear it anymore.  I mean, it's only 9:00 in the morning and he's already about to be sent to his room for time out!  The noises he makes are like fingernails on a chalk board!  So very frustrating.  Maybe because I'm a bit moody on my period is why I can't handle much more!  I feel bad for feeling this way about my child but it's the truth.  I love when he decides to be sweet and cuddly and quiet but that's rare most days.  I don't wish him older, I just wish him quieter and nicer.  :/

Anyway, that's my weigh in for the week.  Not up but not down much.  Gotta get back to working out every day!  No excuses, just DO IT!

Friday, July 29, 2011


I decided that today I would go through ALL of our clothes (the whole family) and get rid of a ton of stuff.  Well 2 hours later of working straight I'm not even halfway through yet. 

I will admit that it has been fun finding clothes that I wasn't able to wear before because they were too small and now they are too big!  We aren't the most organized family especially with our clothes.  For one thing, I hate doing laundry (go figure) and so we have baskets of dirty clothes and clean throughout our house.  Well this must change!  We have too many clothes.  I think the problem is that I forget what I even have and end up buying something new just because. 

I plan to make everything fit in the closet and in our drawers and anything that doesn't fit is going to be thrown out!

I have 3 bags for goodwill, a big tub full of clothes I will give to friends, and one for my sister's kids.  I hated to part with some of the clothes but for the most part it felt great to get rid of clothes that were too BIG instead of clothes that are too small.  :)

How do you organize your clothes?  Do you put seasonal clothes up in the attic or stored away?  We have always just had everything down and my goodness that's a lot of clothes!  We don't have a big closet so the way we do things is going to have to change.  I've just got to figure out how to organize things!

Back to work. 

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Really? My face was how fat?

I use to hate taking pictures because my face showed just how fat I was... had become.  I was looking through some pictures today from the last year and am shocked at what I found!

February 2010 after Lauren was born.  Check out that CHIN!  It is hard for me to find very many pictures of me because I would RUN from the cameras!

This was about a year ago.  I thought I didn't look too bad!  Boy was I wrong.  Look at that chin!  Oh and check me out, 2 drinks.  Do you think I cared about how much sugar or calories were in those?  Probably not.

January 2011 at a get together.  That's my skinny sister.  Check out that chin!  I use to hide my fat by wearing sweatshirts and I thought those jeans I had on were good.  And every time I had my picture taken I would raise my head up like that was going to hide my chins!  Ha! 
My whole face blended in with my neck.  I can't believe what losing a little weight will do to your face.  That was the first things people started noticing.  "I can see it in your face."  Well the proof is in the pictures.  Here is a recent picture.

I think my whole head is getting thinner.  It doesn't look as wide.  And look, I have a neck and 1 chin!  :)
I still have a long way to go but I'm not hiding anymore.  I'm embracing myself and bring on the camera.  I'll pose for it and not feel embarrassed.  I just can't wait to see what I'll look like in a few more months!  :)


I was bored, found my tape measure and decided to measure this morning for fun.  Ummm  Here are the results!  It has been 9 days since I last measured myself.

7/19/11 Measurements and Weight: 187 (really 184 but that's what I weighed on the 19th)
  • Waist (around my belly button): 40"
  • Hips (Around my butt): 45 1/2 
  • Chest (around my chest with my shirt on): 42"
  • Neck: 14.5"
  • Leg: 26.5" 
7/28/11 Measurements and Weight 181 (as of a few days ago)
  • Waist: 37"
  • Hips: 42"
  • Chest: 39"
  • Neck: 13"
  • Leg: 23"

Waist: lost 3 inches
Hips: lost 3.5 inches
Chest: lost 3 inches
Neck: 1.5 inches
Leg: 3.5 inches

WOW I didn't expect to see that at all.  Maybe I pulled tighter?  I dunno.  But heck, even if I pulled a little tighter I wouldn't have pulled 3 inches worth!  :)

I'M A BELIEVER NOW!  I am a true believer on measuring!  WOW!  So very exciting.  Could it be that I measured myself later in the day last time?  Does that make a big difference?  I could see that maybe my waist would be affected by that but not everywhere else.  1.5 inches around my neck?  That's a true change because you can't pull too tight around your neck.  :P  3.5 inches around my leg?  WOW! And one of the first measurements I took around my chest was 38, which would make sense since I just bought a bra size 18.  :)

That is amazing!  I can tell that I feel smaller all over but this really shows proof huh?  WOOHOO!  What a great way to start the day.  I'll do this again on Sunday and make if more official.

Here's a picture of me from the other night out with friends.

Boring post, don't read. :)

Good morning blog friends. 

I can tell that aunt flow is going to make her appearance in a couple of days because I have felt hungry and blah.  I wish she would hurry up and show her face so I can get back to my happy self.

I've just felt lazy and blah the past couple of days.

I went out with some friends the other night and had a great time.  It's nice to just laugh. 

The other day Jason took the battery from my scale to put in a remote for Conner and I haven't put it back in since.  So I haven't weighed myself since Sunday and I think I won't weigh myself again until Sunday.  We'll see how I do.  :)  I feel like I haven't lost any this week but who knows.  Only time will tell.

I've got to get back in a routine of working out!  It has been so darn hot (inside and out) that I just can't seem to get movin'.  I'm going to zumba this morning!  Hopefully that will help me get back in the groove of things.

The countdown until I go back to teaching has begun.  I'm actually looking forward to it.  I'm looking forward to getting in a routine.  I have got to start getting up early so I'm prepared!  Going from getting up around 9-10 to getting up at 5-6 is going to be rough!

I guess that's all I'm going to be able to blog this morning... hard to think with a child talking in my ear.

Until we meet again.  Sorry this was a boring post!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

The girls are getting smaller!

Went out shopping a bit this afternoon.  Tried on a bra (in desperate need of a new one) and was suprised to find that my big girls are getting smaller FOR SURE.

I was wearing a 42DD before this journey started and today I bought myself a 38D.  :)  Such a happy feeling.  Those girls get in the way of most everything I wear.  I can't wear some shirts because they are just too tight at the top.  I still am that way but at least they are shrinking.

:)  That's really all I had to say today. 

Jason took the battery out of the scale!  Not on purpose, he needed it for something else but I haven't weighed myself today and am going through withdraw!  Oh well, maybe I'll get out and get a new battery in a few days. 

Time to go try on clothes and figure out what to wear tonight (going to the movies with friends).  :) 

Ta-ta for now...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Crazy children and a little inspiration

Monday... oh how I hate today.  Not that I've done bad eating or anything... I'm just bored, my children are getting on my nerves, and bedtime can't come quick enough!  I swear this child doesn't know how to talk, he just SCREAMS everything.

So here I sit, trying to block the noise out and blog.  But that's hard to do.

Woke up late today and didn't eat breakfast.  I think that made my day a little off.  I've felt off all day!  At least tonight I will get back into my running routine!  Tonight starts week 2 of C25K!  I'm a bit nervous about it.  I could barely do week 1! Now I'm suppose to run for 90 seconds and walk 2 minutes back and forth.  90 seconds seems like a LONG TIME!  But I'll push through it and do it.

How long until bedtime? :O BRB gotta go put a band aide on a finger.  MAN THIS IS LIKE THE LONGEST DAY OF THE YEAR.....

How do you keep a child from constantly SCREAMING?  He's happy but the squealing sound is getting under my skin.  1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10  ok that's a little bit better.

Here's a little inspiration for you today:

I have always said- "you aren't going to lose weight until you are mentally ready." 

Watched Oprah today (rerun of course) and she had 100 guests who had lost 100 pounds or more in the audience.  She talked with a few about what got them started, what motivated them, what touched them deep down to have them change their lives.

She had some guy on (I can't remember... Bob something maybe?) who said, "you have to ask yourself 3 questions."  1.  Why did you gain the weight?  2.  Why do you want to lose the weight?  and 3.  I can't remember the 3rd one.

The 2nd one hit me and made me realize what I have been saying is SO true.  He said, if you are wanting to lose the weight because you have an event coming up... that might get you started but you have to mentally make a change and want to lose the weight for yourself (or something like that).  I can't remember what else he said because I got interrupted by my child screaming (go figure).  But anyway, it clarifies for me my whole philosophy of losing weight.  You will not lose the weight and you will not keep any of the weight you do lose off if you aren't mentally ready to make a change.

My mom called me today to see how I was doing and to see if I was still motivated and hanging in there.  I'm at a point now that I don't need to be motivated anymore.  I'm at a point now that I don't need to "hang in there."  This is a new life for me.  This is a new way of thinking.  I've made a change to be a different person, a healthier person, a happier person.

That's it.  So whenever anyone asks me how I've done it or what "diet" I'm on or how do you stay motivated?  I will tell them that I was mentally ready to lose the weight and change my life.

Don't force yourself to lose weight, when you are in the right mindset and ready for a change, it will happen.  I will offer my advice but I can't help you lose the weight if you aren't ready.

And on that note I've got to go put a child in time out... or to bed early!  Bleh, I'm ready to get back to teaching!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Happy Fridge

I love the day after a big trip to the grocery store when your fridge is full of fresh food!  I almost get too excited.  What am I going to make first?  Salad? Chicken? Veggies?  It is just a bit overwhelming.  :)  Maybe I'm just weird.  I usually wait until I have nothing left to eat in the house (but yet the fridge still has stuff and so does the pantry) but tuna and then hit the store.

We went to SAMS and got yummy peaches and grapes and salmon and chicken and and and the list goes on and on of yummyness.

I got spinach and made myself my first green smoothie.  It didn't turn out green like I expected it to look but I put at least 2 cups of spinach in there (too much? Not enough?) and frozen strawberries and frozen banana and a scoop of my protein powder to make it all smooth and creamy.  It made 2 huge smoothies!  I'm thinking I may put the 2nd half of my smoothie in the fridge until I can stomach it all.  I'm STUFFED!  It was good though.

I got a big bag of almonds at the store and I'm thinking about making almondaise with some of it.  It is so good on wraps or sandwiches.  My mom use to make these veggie wraps where you chop up or food process the veggies until they are small and then mix it with the almondaise and wrap it up in a wheat tortilla and enjoy.  It's yummy- I did it once with broccoli, carrots, cauliflower, water chestnuts, and a bag of that slaw mix.  Now I think I'm craving that!  I'll have to get on that as soon as I eat through some of this other yummy food I have here.

Here's the recipe for Almonnaise:

1/2 cup raw almonds
1/2 to 3/4 cup water or soymilk
2 rounded teaspoons of soy powder (optional)
1 teaspoon of nutritional yeast (found at a local health food store)
1/4 teaspoon of garlic powder
3/4 teaspoon salt-free seasoning or seasoned salt
1 to 1 1/4 cups safflower or sunflower oil (I use safflower and LOVE IT)
3 tbs lemon juice
1/2 teaspoon apple cider vinegar

1.  Cover almonds with boiling water and allow to cool slightly.  Slip off the skins.  Have all ingredients handy.
2.  Place almonds in blender or food processor (I think I'll try my new blender!) and grind to a fine powder.  Add half the water or soy milk along with soy powder, yeast, garlic powder, and seasoning.  Blend well, then add the remaining water or soymilk to form a smooth cream.
3.  With blender running on low, remove insert and top and drizzle the oil in a thin stream until mixture is thick.
4.  Kepp blender running and add lemon juice and vinegar.  Blend on low for 1 minute longer to allow mixture to thicken to desired consistency.  Refrigerate tightly sealed; this will keep for 10 days to 2 weeks in the fridge.

YUMMY!  I'm going to go make me some right now!

(EDIT: THE WAY I SAY TO COOK SALMON IS NOT A HEALTHY OPTION!  I DON'T RECOMMEND THIS METHOD UNLESS YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT FAT AND CALORIES... OR HEART ATTACK.  SEE THE COMMENTS FOR A HEALTHIER CHOICE... WHICH I WILL DEFINITELY TRY) Oh and salmon!  I love salmon.  We got a HUGE thing of salmon at SAMS that I plan to cook in a couple of days.  Here's how I do it (for those of you interested)... I may have to tweak it to make it more healthy...  Line a broiling pan with foil, poke hole in the foil to let it drain (this helps with some of the cleanup).  Put the salmon on the pan skin side down.  Put mayonnaise over the salmon (like you're frosting a cake).  Turn your oven on broil.  After the oven is hot, put the salmon in for 7 minutes.  Then take it out, flip it and cook for 7 minutes.  Take it out, flip it again and baste with a mixture of oil, butter, Cajun spices, garlic or really whatever flavors you want.  Put in the oven and cook for another 5-6 minutes depending on thickness.  It turns out PERFECT every time!  :) So juicy and so YUMMY!  Not sure what the mayonnaise does but I think it is key to the perfectly cooked juicy salmon.

Anyway, that's enough from chef Leah today.  I'm gonna go look in the fridge and plan out what's for lunch today.  :)

Sunday Weigh in

Ok so I'm going to start doing a Sunday weigh in each week because I get a bit confused as to how much weight a week I'm losing.  I guess I weigh myself every day and can't remember what I was last week.

Starting weight: 204
Last week: 184
Current Weight: 181
Pounds lost this week: 3
Pounds lost total: 23

That's right people!  I'm making progress!  On the 16th, about a week ago, I weighed in at 184.  On the 12th I weighed in at 182 and then went up for a week to 186 even!  But I think because it was sodium related issues that caused me to gain.  For the past few days I have been drinking water like crazy and I think that's helped me.

So YAY!  I'm just glad I'm going down.  I have 36 more pounds to lose (to get to 145) and then I'll reach my big goal.  I don't plan to stop when I get to 145.  I do plan to keep working out, eating right, and exercising to continue to maintain and maybe lose more.  :)

Here's another happy:

Starting shirt size: XL (stretched at times and some shirt XXL)
Current shirt size: L (some shirts don't work at L but most do)

Starting pant size: 18
Current pant size: 13/14 (not sure what that is in "adult" size and not "teen"?)

Starting dress size: 18 (tight around mid-section and boobs)
Current dress size: 14 (barely, a little snug in the boobs but 16 is too big)

It is so fun to watch the progress.  Am I really going to go down more?  I haven't been smaller than this in a LONG LONG TIME that I can't picture myself really any smaller. 

I love the way my legs look and feel.  They are tighter, more defined, and not so cheesy and squishy.

I am not sure that the mid section flabby baby skin will ever go away.  It appears to be getting smaller (or not as "full" looking) but I don't think it will ever tighten up.

I can tell in my fingers and toes that they aren't as bloated and chubby.  Did you know your hands get fat?  That's just crazy!  Wonder how long before my wedding ring will fit again? (it was always tight, I didn't want it to fall off)

Jason said the other day that I have a knee cap!  My knee is more defined and not covered up by fat.

All these little changes make a big difference.  It's crazy.  :)

I'll take pictures later on today and try to get a comparison shot on here. 

Until we meet again...

Friday, July 22, 2011

And I'm back...

(Don't shoot me, I never put the scale away, I just changed my mindset that I'm doing everything right and will lose weight, gain muscle, lose inches, in my own time when my body is ready).  If that makes sense at all?  In a nutshell- I got over what the scale was saying to me and have decided to continue to learn how to deal with the scale and not let it OWN me.  :)

So anyway.  I woke up this morning and jumped on the scale as usual and saw 184.  So finally I'm back to where I was a few days ago.  I'm still not down anymore but at least I'm not still going UP.  :)

I feel fine about where I've come.  I mean in the past 10, almost 11, weeks I've lost 20 pounds!  20!!!  That's 2 pounds a week and that's perfect weight loss.  Yes I haven't lost any this week and that's ok.  There are going to be those times when maybe I am just gaining muscle (you can feel it in my arms and legs!) and not seeing progress on the scale.

I went swimming at a friends house today and didn't feel uncomfortable AT ALL in my swimming suit!  That's a first in YEARS!  I use to dread getting out of my coverup or getting up out of the pool when my suit is all wet and hanging tight on me, showing off all the bumps and curves and imperfections. 

No I'm not perfect, yes I'm still "fat" but who the heck cares?  Women come in all shapes and sizes and we have our curves, that's what makes us unique.  :)  I have flabby tummy but that came from my 2 wonderful children.  Would I trade that?  No.  I have stretch marks (no visible, hidden under my suit) but would I take those back?  No, I have children. My boobs sag but I nursed 2 babies on them things!  Would I trade that?  NO.

So, own your skin.  Love your body.  If you do that, who the heck cares what other people are thinking?  All that matters is what you think about your body and the way you look. 

I'm not saying I love the way I look but at least I am not angry anymore.  I'm not angry at how I let myself get fat.  I'm not angry at what childbirth did to my body.  I'm not trying to hide anymore.  I am who I am, and I love myself more and more each day. 

I challenge everyone out here in the blogging world- go get naked and stand in front of your mirror.  How does it make you feel?  What do you see that's good?  What's bad?  Try to develop a relationship with yourself and the way you feel and get over what you think other people see.

When I went out the other night with a group of beautiful women (all mom's), one of them said to me, "I never saw you as the "fat" one.  I just saw you as normal."  (or something like that)  That really stuck with me, because I ALWAYS thought of myself as the "fat" one.  I was so insecure with my body and how I looked.  I always thought that any of the guys we came in contact with at any of the bars was thinking "oh look, a group of hot women and a fat girl trying to fit in." 

So I guess over the course of 10 weeks I have learned to LOVE myself.  I still have work to do, weight to lose, muscle to build, but I love who I am and who I am becoming!

Go get naked and have a talk with yourself!  :)

Until we meet again...

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Happy Shopping Day!

I sent the kids to daycare today and ran around town ALL DAY LONG!

I went to a new nutrition store here in town today that one of my friends recommended and took me with her.  That was fun.  I got to sample their special tea, shake, and some kind of aloe shot for something (I think digestion).  Not too bad.  The tea was yummy and it has a lot of things in it that are suppose to be good (I don't know what, I think it has a lot of green tea and other stuff).  They weighed me, got my height (5" 6") and did my BMI (29.7 I think).  She talked to me about what I should be eating as far as calories to lose weight and about some of their products.  I went back later in the day to get my measurements (which were fairly close to what I came up with at home- she pulled a little tighter when measuring me).

I like the place and I liked the girl.  Whenever I go in to talk to her or get my new measurements they charge 5.99 and give you the tea, shake, and shot.  Not a bad deal in my opinion.  If I was to go get a shake somewhere else it would probably cost me more.  They use the shakes as 2 meal replacements a day.  I think I may do that when I go back to school because it would be easy to mix myself a shake for breakfast and lunch.

So I only bought the tea today because I already have vitamins I need to finish, and protein shake I need to go through first.

The tea was GREAT!  I think I peed like 4 times in just a few hours.  I didn't feel too gittery (because it does contain caffeine) but I was hungry for lunch for sure.


So after that I went to the post office to finally mail off the giveaway prize!  I just dreaded going with my children so I went today with no children.  :)

Then I met Jason for lunch at my favorite Thai place and had pad thai- been craving that for weeks!

Then I went shopping!!!!  Found me a fun pair of short boots at a resale shop!  SUPER EXCITED about those.

Went to a few more places and got me some size LARGE (woohoo) tops and a dress (can't zip it all the way yet, but soon).

Went to the mall and had fun going in "normal" places shopping for not the largest size in the store.  I tried on some jeans and got me a pair of 13/14 pants!  I got another top that is super cute, size Large too!  Going to wear that outfit to the bachelorette party I'm going to on Saturday.  :)

Happy day for trying on clothing.  I didn't want to get too much but I just had fun trying clothes on.  I still have issues with my boobs- they need to get smaller still!  Some of the cute tops I guess were made for little teenie boppers that have no boobs.

Overall a happy productive day.  I didn't find a dress for the wedding I am going to on August 5th, but there's still time.  :)

Going to go play games with my little one before he goes to bed.  :)  Until we meet again my blog stalkers.  :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Random thoughts...

Happy hump day everyone out in blog land.  I've had a rather good day today.  Took the kids over to my sister's new neighborhood to swim.  I really like her new neighborhood.  So I'm sure I will be sneaking over there to get her key to the pool quite often (since she lives like 10 minutes from me).  :) 

I hadn't put on my bathing suit since I was about 14 pounds down and today I put it on (about 20+ pounds lighter) and I was SHOCKED at my boobs!  I use to have to "tuck" them into my suit and hope they didn't pop out and surprise everyone around me.  Today I had to kinda pull them out so it looked like I filled in my suit.  :)  That's a happy surprise for sure!  So that's where my 20 pounds of loss went! 

I also didn't feel so self conscious in my suit.  Yeah, I'm still fat but not AS fat.  :)  I like to consider myself (said this before) a "work in progress."  That really does help me when I'm in my swim suit for sure.

I have a friend coming over tonight to do the C25K with me.  I've completed week 1 but I think I'll stretch it out a few more days because I'm just not ready to move on (and she just started).  I am finding it hard to get in the groove of running and breathing.  I've gotta get a pace going and learn to breath right while I run.  My SHINS were KILLING me on Monday when we ran together (I had run the day before too), but I was able to push through and do it.  Such a good feeling.  Looking forward to tonight.  :)

I have a bachelorette party to go to on Saturday (never been to one, never had one) and want to get myself something new to wear for the occasion.  I need a personal shopper because I have no clue what's in style!  I use to just look for clothes that FIT me and that was that.  :) 

I'm looking forward to really loosing more weight and getting down in more sizes so I can really buy myself clothes.  I don't want to buy a lot of clothes that I know just won't fit me in a few months.  What a great way to look at weight loss though- in the FUTURE.  I feel like looking ahead into the future really helps you stay on track and keep on truckin' to lose weight.  :)  Maybe I'll go shopping and buy myself something to FIT into in the future when I lose more weight.  Maybe I'll hang it on the wall in my house like a trophy or reward. 

With all this said, it's time to go finish cleaning the kitchen and think about what's for dinner tonight.  Happy blogging!  Until next time...

Smoothies for dummies

Alright my blog stalker friends.  Bombard me with your favorite smoothie recipes?  I've got this new blender and the only smoothies I have made so far are just frozen fruit and milk (and maybe yogurt).

So tell me- what is your favorite GREEN smoothie?  I've been hearing a lot of people talk about them and how yummy and good they are but there are so many variations out there I don't know where to start.  :)

What else do you like to put in your smoothie? 

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Yes, 3rd blog post of the day... (Measurements)

I've got a lot of my mind today and want to share.  I WILL put the scale far far away tonight (I can't do it, gotta have the hubby do it so I won't find it).  It is making me sad.  I have a feeling that since my time of the month friend came to visit me almost a week late last month, that maybe she's coming early this month, which could explain why I'm up on the scale.  So, I'll put the darn thing away until August 1st.!!!  That's a LONG way away!!!!  I sure hope I can do it.

I'm going to get out and go to the store (I hate going with children) tonight when the hubby gets home and get myself a measuring tape... or maybe I'll search around the house, I have a feeling I have one somewhere.... FOUND IT!  SCORE!

Ok so here we go with my measurements:

Waist (around my belly button): 40"
Hips (Around my butt): 45 1/2
Chest (around my chest with my shirt on): 42"
Neck: 14.5"
Leg: 26.5"
(wish I had beginning measurements to compare)

I'm not sure if I measured correctly or not but I guess if I'm consistent then I should see loss, right?  :)  I'll do more of an official measurement tomorrow morning when I don't have so much in my tummy.  Or maybe I'll just go with it.

I've done pretty good today:
Breakfast: protein shake
Lunch: Salad- mandarin oranges (not good), grilled chicken, spinach and arugula, almonds, and Newman's own Sesame Ginger dressing.
Snack: A few bites of my little one's popcorn (kettle corn smart pop)
For Dinner I plan to eat something light that will keep me under my calorie goal for the day.

I've been drinking a ton of water and going to the bathroom every hour just about.

Speaking of which, I guess it's time to get off of here and go fill up my water bottle.  :)

I will lose this weight and I will feel great.  I know it's going to take time and I will try my hardest not to get discouraged.

I will add here that it amazes me how many people have been touched by my blog.  When I started, I was doing this for me to have something to hold me accountable for.  I started just as a way to record my progress.  I had NO IDEA what impact it would make on the lives of the people around me.  I have inspired others to get their butt off the couch and do something.  I have inspired others to join me in the weight loss journey.  I have motivated people to get back to a healthier lifestyle.  I have inspired others to come with me and to share their feelings with me about their weight loss.  It is amazing to me that I have people sending me messages, calling me, texting me with WEIGHT LOSS ADVICE!  I wouldn't have dreamed that in a million years that people would see me as someone who is knowledgeable about weight loss or health.  Not that I'm knowledgeable but at least people see me as someone who knows a little about it.  I am not a doctor nor do I claim to know a lot about the best route for weight loss.  Lord knows I haven't always taken the right route. People coming to me, talking to me, and asking me for advice just pumps me up more to lose this weight.  I know it's a process and that it won't happen overnight.  Just know that it needs to be more mental than physical.  If your brain isn't "in it to win it" you aren't going to lose the weight....

Anyway, I'm off to drink water and think about what work out I want to do tonight.  Happy blogging.  Until we meet again...

These are a few of my favorite blogs...

I like to blog- it's my way of venting to the world about anything I want.  It's my blog, I can say what I want and you can choose to read or not read what I have to say.

I enjoy reading other blogs as well.  Some times I don't agree with what I read but its your blog, you can write what you want to write and I'll read it if I want.  :)

I have found a lot of weight loss blogs and have found a few that I love to read.

The first blog I read every day is So Fat 4 Now.  He is a guy that tends to rub people the wrong way at times (me included) and blogs about his life along with other blogs he reads that rub him the wrong way (me included).  I like his blog because he's the type of person that doesn't give a Sh&*.  He's lost a lot of weight and has more to go and seems to have a plan as to how to get there.  He posts a lot of "food porn" pictures (that I try not to look at!) and posts a lot of thoughts that are just spot on.  His post this morning I felt was wonderful and inspirational and very "get your butt up and do something" type post.  So, go over to this blog and read what he has to say.

Another blog I like to look at is The Slow Roasted Italian.  She posts recipes to some yummy looking food.  I haven't tried any of her recipes yet but I will.  I love reading blogs that have a lot of pictures.  So if you are hungry, go over to The Slow Roasted Italian and see what she's cooking up.  :)


I have a few more blogs I really like to read but my little guy is wanting me to go play Lego Star Wars with him... so I guess I'll have to post a few more later.  :)  Happy blogging.

Not an inspirational post, don't read it.

I warned you.  I'm feeling kinda crabby today.  Woke up this morning and saw 187 on the scale!!!  WTF?  I don't know what I'm doing wrong but I'm gaining weight this week and it's pissing me off!  I guess I'm going to go to the store this morning and get fresh fruits and veggies and eat raw.  I thought "protein" was going to be a good route but I'm having no luck with it.  Maybe I'm still not drinking enough water?  Maybe my sodium is too high?  I don't know but I'm really pissed about not going down the scale.

Yes- blah blah muscle weighs more than fat.  Whatever, I just know I have a lot of fat to lose and for some reason this week it just ain't going down.  I've been working out.  I have been working out to the point that I can't walk today from all the new muscle groups I've been working out.

I've got to get over this funk I'm in.  It's starting to mess with my mind, make me frusterated and depressed about losing weight. 

I've got to get back to the positive me, the happy me, the one that's losing weight and getting healthy me.

Here's what I ate yesterday:
Breakfast- smoothie- frozen fruit, 1/2 milk, whey protein powder
Lunch- Salad mix- asian salad
Snack- pretzels (that could be my sodium issue) and hummas
Dinner- Mediteranian salad- gyro meat

That's it.  It equaled out to about 1200 calories (more than I usually do but what I should be doing).

So today.  I'm going to fill up a gallon thing of water and drink the whole darn thing.  I'm going to go to the store and get my little mini veggie trays that I had been eating.  I'm going to go walking like I use to go, tonight for 1 hour or more. 

Maybe trying new things like zumba for longer and this running/5k training, and riding a bike, is either not doing it for me, maybe I am gaining a lot more muscle, or maybe I'm not drinking enough water.

I don't know, I'm just so darn frustrated this morning.  I don't like plateaus.  I don't like going up the scale.  I'm so mad right now I could scream. 

I so badly want to lose this weight.  I so badly want to find that inner skinny girl that's stuck inside this fat body. 

Maybe I should put the scale away again for a very long time... like a month and see what happens.  That just scares me that I won't hold myself accountable for my weight.  I usually gage the day by what the scale says.  If I'm up then I know I'm doing something wrong, if I'm down then I know that I'm doing something right.  So I just don't know what to do.

Hard to post when you have a 4 year old screaming in your ear about things in the morning.  So I guess that's all I have time for this morning.


Yes, I think the scale is going a way for a very long time because I'm getting obsessed with it... so bye bye scale- I'm sending it off to be hidden. I think I may have it go away until the first of August.  Maybe then I'll be down on the scale. 

Monday, July 18, 2011


I am so sore today.  My feet hurt so bad that I can't really walk this morning.  Planter's fasciitis sucks! 

I think every one of my leg muscles hurts, my shoulders hurt, my chest hurts. 

But it feels so good.  I know that I've worked my tail off really good the past couple of days (more than other days in a while) and it feels great.  I enjoy working out.  Now if only I wasn't so sore to get up and do zumba this morning.  I just don't think my body will let me.  I may sick to riding my stationary bike this morning because it's already so hot outside.

Ok so I was trying to keep this post all happy or whatever but I just don't feel happy today.  I'm proud of how far I've come in the past 10 weeks but I'm feeling a bit sad today.  I know that maybe I'm gaining muscle and blah blah muscle weighs more than fat.  But I know I've got a lot of fat in there that should be leaving me and the scales just aren't reflecting that this week.  I feel like I'm stuck again and I'm scared I may be going up the scale.  I feel like I'm working my tail off and burning enough calories throughout the day, it's just not going down.  :/  I hate to just dwell on the number I see, but I can't help it.  I want to lose weight and to me, that shows up on the scale.  I know for sure that I've got more muscle than I use to- but really? how much more does muscle weigh than fat?  I just think that's a lame excuse or lame reason to not seeing pounds come off.

I have stuck to my "plan" for the past 10 weeks with only a few slip ups.  I have stayed under or around 1000-1200 calories a day with a lot of those days being way under.  I have stuck with working out almost every day! 

It is so hard to have the patience with losing weight.  I want to see results constantly and it sucks when I get to a week and I see nothing, no movement on the scale.

I see changes in my clothes for sure.  I know I'm losing inches and I know I'm getting smaller.  I know that is a great way to know that even though the scale doesn't say it, the clothes do. 

I'm just afraid that I'm doing something wrong.  I gave in yesterday for a few extra bites and told myself I wasn't going to feel guilty about it, but I do.  I feel guilty about every bite I put in my mouth.  All I see when I put food in my mouth is "calories" and "working it off."  I guess that's part of learning to eat differently and having a different lifestyle than I use to.  I use to just eat whatever the heck I wanted and sometimes I'd say "in moderation."  Which is a JOKE!  If you are saying "in moderation" every day, do you really think it's in moderation?  NO! 

Anyway, enough of me ranting away about how down in the dumps I feel right now.  I'm going to go drink me a protein drink and get on my bike and ride far far away in my mind to a place where I'm skinny and a place where I can stick my feet in the sand, wearing a bikini, and drinking a big margarita.  :) 

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Just keep swimming...

This morning I woke up and weighed myself... just like I thought- 184 yet again!  I'm getting a little frusterated but trying to ignore the scale and keep on swimming, dancing, running, whatever.  I'm not going to let this get me down (well I did a bit but I'm gonna TRY to not let the scale break me down).

What keeps me going is all my love and support and right now I have to give props to my husband.  (sorry honey, said I wouldn't talk about you on my blog... but I am, it's all positive).  :)  Today he made me feel really good when he told me that he could really tell a difference in my legs and my waist.  He has been really supportive, never said a negative word to me at all throughout this whole journey.  He has told me on several occasions that he is proud of me.  He has ended up losing a few pounds just from being around me or maybe I'm in his brain when he goes out to eat without me.  So, thank you hubby for sticking by me and staying positive with me.  :)

I did Zumba today on the wii.  I usually do the beginner workout and have tried the intermediate workout but the past few days I've done the intermediate 45 minute workout and they kicked my tail!  I felt so good when I was done.  I'm a bit sore today but I've got to push myself outside and complete day 2 of C25K.

I told myself that today I would splurge and eat whatever and not plug in the calories... I did eat whatever I felt like, snacked a few times throughout the day.  I ate healthy foods, just more than what I usually do.  I did end up plugging everything in and I ate about 1500 calories today!  That's all?  I usually eat 1000 or less and I felt like I was eating and eating and eating and all I came up with was 1500.  Oh well, I'm gonna try to let either Saturday or Sunday be a day of splurging and eating a bit more and let the other days be around 1000-1200.  So I guess I didn't go overboard with splurging today.

There will be no pictures this week because I just don't feel like you'd see any change.  I'll take them tomorrow but probably won't post pictures for another week.

I'm off to run/walk my tail off.  :)

Thanks all my loving and supporting blog stalkers for reading my unedited words.

EDIT: Zumba this morning, C25K tonight.  MY BUTT HAS BEEN KICKED!  But it feels so good!  I can officially say, "I love working out."  :)

Saturday, July 16, 2011

10 Weeks today

So today is 10 weeks since I started this journey (I think I said that last week... but I figured it out for realz).  :P

Starting weight: 204
Weight today: 184
Pounds lost: 20

I'm a little frustrated but not.  I was down 2 pound more the other day but back up to 184 today.  :/  BUT!  I have lost 2 pounds a week on average, which was my goal anyway.  So I'm doing good.  I think a lot of the reason I gained that 2 pounds back is because I am not drinking water like I need to be.  I also think it is because I'm not upping my workout.  I'm doing about the same as I did in the beginning and now I'm not burning as many calories so I'll need to add another workout or time to my workout to burn more calories.   

So, my goal to be 170 on August 5th is just not going to happen unless I lose more than 2 pounds a week.

I'm setting a new goal for myself.  176 by August 10th (that's when I go back to school).  I have 26 days or about 3.7 weeks to do this.  So that is a little over 2 pounds a week.  It will be almost 30 pounds total lost. 

I think what I'm going to start doing is go on a bike ride in the mornings (not a morning person though), my C25K training in the evening, and make sure to get zumba workout or some DVD workout 2 times a week as well as weight training a couple times a week too.

I will take pictures of me tomorrow but I don't expect myself to look any different than I did last week (I was at the same weight last week). 

A few questions to all my blog stalkers: 

1.  What have you done to help you get that weight off when you seem to be stuck? 
2.  What workout do you feel burns the most calories and makes you feel great?
3.  What weight is your ultimate goal? (I keep going back and forth, not sure where I want to be)

Friday, July 15, 2011

From Couch to 5K- Day 1

WOW!  I did it!  I ran for a total of 8 minutes tonight!  I downloaded the podcast for "couch to 5K" on my ipod and started training today.  I didn't know if I was going to be able to run the full 60 seconds but I did!  I pushed myself and did it.  What a great feeling.  I know it wasn't a fast run, more like a slow jog but at least it was more than walking and not bad for my first time.

I did ride my bike to "warm up" for about 30 minutes and I think that helped.  I really enjoyed it.  I knew that the lady on the podcast is gonna come back on and tell me when to stop and when to start and that helped me push myself further than I thought I could go.  :)  I have a feeling that I'll do even better the next time.

When I got back I sat down to rest and looked down to see...

I know, silly, but I'm proud to know that my SPANDEX workout outfit is getting smaller (or it's just stretched out).  :P

Update on various things

I had a fellow blogger mention that I need to do an update on some things.

1.  My blender I purchased a few weeks ago-  (go here to read the blog post).

I LOVE my blender.  Compared to the one I had years ago this one is fabulous!  I haven't made very many things in it yet but let me just tell you that it does make snow.  Well worth 100 dollars I paid for it!  :)

2.  My supplements I'm taking- (go here to read the blog post).

I absolutely love my supplements.  I have to really psych myself up to take them because they are all so big and hard for me to swallow.  I can't take both of the "energy" pill because it is WAY too much caffeine for me.  I have noticed my bright yellow neon pee too!  I think I read online that my body absorbs what it needs and flushes out the rest?  Either way, I have energy and feel great.  I am having problems getting to sleep.  Since starting the pills (and it could or could not be related to the pills) I can't seem to fall asleep until after 2am.

3.  Protein Shakes- (see the above link for a post about the protein drink)

LOVE LOVE LOVE my protein drinks!  It tastes good, low in calories, high in protein, low in sugar, low in carbs.  :)  It gets me going in the morning.  It doesn't really stick with me as long as I'd like though but it seems to be a great way to start the day.  The other day I added some orange flavored mucinex to it and it was like drinking a melted orange cream Popsicle.

Not sure if there is anything else for me to update.

OH!  I was watching Dr. Oz today and saw a couple of things I WANT!

Here is a cool scale he showed on the show.  It doesn't show up a "weight number" it shows how much you've gained or lost.  I guess you program it and then it keeps a record of your weight.  Sounds cool.

click on the scale for more information

Another cool weight loss gadget Dr. Oz talked about and I want is called a gruve.  It's like a pedometer but it tells you how many calories you've burned.  It also vibrates at you if you have been sitting too long.  You can also go online and it will give you more information.  It changes color to indicate to you how you are doing.  :)  Very cool.  Cost is about 159 dollars (too much for me to spend right now for sure).

click the picture for more information from amazon

99 bottles of beer on the wall...

Good morning... ok afternoon my blog stalkers.  This post turned out to be a long one.  I didn't expect that!

I went out last night with some awesome girls from my mommy group.  I was a bit nervous going out because I know I enjoy my alcoholic beverages and usually I don't care what I drink as long as I am drinking.  :)  But I really didn't want to screw things up for me and had no clue what to order that would be "low calorie."  We went to a sushi bar (is that was you call them?).  I don't eat sushi so I ordered a little side salad with that yummy ginger dressing!  That was pretty cheap so I had money to spend on drinks!  I had 3 cape cods (I think it was cranberry juice and vodka and lime?  Maybe something else too).  Very small drinks but they were good.  Then we went to another bar and I got a beer.  I was told that Michelob Ultra is low in calorie (it was 95 calories a beer) so I got that.  I'm a light beer drinker so it was ok.  We went to another bar and I had another.  Then we went to another bar... and I had another?  And now I don't know where I'm at or how many I've had.  :)  jk 

I had a fun time and talked with the girls a lot about working out and losing weight and feeling great and what I was going to do when I get to my ultimate goal (which I still am not sure what it will be... I guess I'll just know when I get there).  I will need a personal shopper and hair stylist and oh we have 2 great photographers that will have to take pictures of me when I get to my goal!  :)

I felt so much better about myself going out this time.  I spent 40 minutes doing make up on my eyes (that smokey eyes look).  I felt confident in what I had on (oh that strapless dress I've been wearing).  I know I still have a long way to go to be that skinny girl but at least I didn't feel like the "fat" girl in the group (and I didn't mind my picture being taken either!).  People are noticing that I've lost weight.  They say they can tell in my face.  It has amazed me that my neck is smaller (CRAZY). 

I almost didn't recognize one of my friends!  I hadn't seen her in a very long time and she looked GREAT!  She said she had lost 25 pounds by eating right and working out.  She did tell me that she gives herself one day of splurging and eating more.  I just can't do that yet.  I get that guilty feeling inside me when I eat something I know is unhealthy and bad.  Maybe one day I can do it but not yet... just not ready to splurge. 

After our night was over, we walked back to our cars.  I walked alone back to my car.  Luckily there was a few people up in front of me so I kinda followed them and then walked real quickly to my car.  BUT!  There was this guy walking on the other side of the street that yelled at me and asked me if I wanted to go to Waffle House with him and that he was paying.  Silly drunk people.  I almost did but then I thought (too many calories, BAD BAD BAD)... of course I didn't tell him that (he would have thought I was crazy for sure).  I just giggled and said no thanks have a good night and moved on to my car and drove home.

I took my ibprofen and went to bed.  Woke up today and felt ok.  I was expecting me to have those good beer poops this morning but nothing yet.  I think tequila works better on me than beer.  SORRY TMI!

So that's my night.  I weighed myself this morning to see if I had screwed anything up and I was still at 183 so that's good.

Thanks to all my blog stalking peeps for reading my every word.  :)

Until we meet again...

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Fly me to the moon...

Oh boy!  It's a full moon and I sure can tell... I think.  I haven't been sleeping good AT ALL!  Could it be because of the moon?  I thought it was because I was working out at night and was all full of energy (but yesterday I worked out in the morning).  I know it's not caffeine (though I guess it could be my supplements).   Whatever it is, I can't sleep.  I find myself going to bed, watching TV, dozing off, and then waking up 10-15 minutes later READY FOR THE DAY... but it's only 12am and I should go to sleep, so I try and the cycle continues until probably 2-3am (then I have a child in my face at 7:30am asking for breakfast).

I thought maybe it was because I was hungry last night, so I ate some peanut butter and a little glass of milk to see if that helped.  Nope, nothing, nada.  I try not to eat past 8pm and if I go to bed at 10pm, that's fine.  But if I'm up until 2-3am, I get hungry (and usually drink water to help).

Anyway,  let's talk about the moon again.  So I read online that people believe that they weigh less during a full moon.  I weighed in this morning up 1lb (183).  So I don't think that theory is true!  :) BUT!  If I lived on another planet, check out how much I'd weigh.  :)   So let's all just move to the moon. 

I think the reason I'm up is because I haven't been drinking a TON of water the past couple of days and feel a bit bloated and I really need to poop!  Sorry, TMI (you should know by now you're gonna get TMI in my blog).  I'm thinking that if I don't have anything productive this morning, I'm going to have to take a tiny pill again!  :O  That dreaded pill that makes you poop your whole entire colon out completely.  But boy how good I feel after it's over.  After the sweats and the cramps and the running to the potty for an hour is over, I feel so much better and lighter.

Tonight is a girls night out and I'm looking forward to it.  I'm looking forward to dressing up.  I use to dread it but being 20 pounds lighter and happier makes me a bit excited.  I'm curious to see if anyone will notice.  A lot of the girls read my blog or at least know that I'm losing weight, so we shall see.  I'm gonna raid my clothes and see what I can find that fits now.  :)

Off to drink my protein shake, take that magic tiny pill, try on clothes, and book my next flight to the moon.  :P

Until we meet again... on the dark side of the moon...

Oh and don't forget to check out my main homepage for different pages.  About me, My Journey, and My plan.  :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I entered a 5K... wtf?

So yesterday feeling all good about myself and how far I've come and how healthy I'm starting to feel caused me to get all motivated and I entered myself into a 5K run (this one).  I'm proud of myself but oh boy, I'm not a runner.  I can't even run for more than 10 seconds at a time (if even that). 

But!  It isn't until Sept. 5th, so I have some time to "train."  Never thought I would be training for a 5K run.  I ordered me a size L shirt because hopefully by then I'll be down even more pounds.

I've got a few fantastic friends who are doing it with me (one that inspired me to sign up).  So I will start training with a couple of friends throughout the week and hopefully I'll be able to run the darn 3.1 miles (or at least run most of it?). 

I feel like I've got stronger legs now that I've been walking for 10 weeks and riding my bike as well.  So I'm not worried about my legs giving out on me.  I just can't seem to breathe or steady my breathing when I run and not to mention how silly I think I look when I run.

I'm sure I'll get better.  It is just going to take some time and good thing I have a few months to get my butt in gear.

In other news, I got my butt up and rode my bike this morning.  That felt good but my poor butt is still sore from riding last night.

So, which is better?  Riding a bike (for about 6 miles) or walking briskly (for about 4 miles).  I am not sure but I have really enjoyed riding my bike.  I guess I'll switch things up and walk tonight (maybe I'll try running).


Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Have I found the secret to weight loss?

I started taking supplements and drinking protein shakes in the morning and I really think I've found some secret to weight loss.  Maybe not but for some reason I just feel like the pounds just keep falling off.  When I stopped the cabbage soup diet on the 7th and weighed in on the 8th I was 184.  This morning I got up and I was 182.  So that's 2 more pounds in 4 days. 

I take the supplements in the morning and drink a protein shake that has about 30 grams of protein.  I feel full of energy (except when I think about cleaning), not hungry throughout the day, and happy.

Maybe it is because I've started riding my bike?  Maybe it is because I'm eating more protein? Maybe it's a fluke?

Whatever it is, I feel great about my weight loss this past couple of weeks.

On the July 1st I weighed 189.  Today I weigh 182.  That's 7 pounds in less than 2 weeks!

I can't believe that pretty soon I'll be in the 70's!!!!  I feel like it was yesterday that I was hoping for the 80's real big!  Now I'm running through the 80's so fast!  At this rate I will meet my goal to be 170 on August 5th!

Let's see... I also wanted to post about what I HAVEN'T done since starting my weight loss journey:
1.  I haven't had a Dr. Pepper since before May (I was having 1 a day!)
2.  I haven't eaten more than 2400 calories a day
3.  I haven't gained any weight back (other than bloating and not going down the scale)
4.  I haven't had a salad with RANCH, bacon, cheese, eggs, croutons (basically I haven't had a good BAD salad) 
5.  I haven't eaten fast food (well ok I had Taco Bell once)
6.  I haven't had a burger with a bun or cheese (and I don't miss it)
7.  I haven't felt like giving up

What I have done
1.  I have lost 22 pounds
2.  I have changed my eating habbits
3.  I have stopped my addiction to food
4.  I've drank a TON of water
5.  I have blogged about my experience honestly
6.  I have developed a happy self esteem
7.  I have seen myself as a work in progress
8.  I have given into cravings and moved on
9.  I've tracked my calories EVERY DAY!
10. I have learned how to ride a bike
11.  I have learned how to run (not good at it but I tried)
12.  I have learned how to have patience about weight loss
13. I have worked out at least 3 times a week (most of the weeks probably about 5 days a week)
14.  I have inspired others

I'm sure there are other things but I just can't think of any more right now.  :)  I can't belive myself!  I can't believe that I am really changing and losing all this weight!  I have tried in the past but every time I do I fail.

Dr. Oz was saying the other day that people who make their weight loss public and let people know that they are losing weight will lose 20% more than people who don't tell anyone.  Isn't that the truth!  I feel like I couldn't have done it if I was doing it all by myself.  I feel like there are so many people out here watching, listening, and supporting me that how can I fail?  I have such an AMAZING support group that I've never had before.  I am proud of myself.  This is the first time in a very long.. maybe EVER, that I've been PROUD of what I've accomplished.  And it's only just begun.  I look forward to losing more weight and becoming an even happier, healthy person.

Monday, July 11, 2011

A whole new world...

I woke up this morning ready to tackle the day... ok I lie.  I woke up to my little boy in my face asking me for milk and cereal.  I tried to tell him it was too early (7:30am) and to go back to bed... that didn't work so I had to get up.

I got the kids ready and took them to daycare so I could spend the good day cleaning and making this house sparkle.  Well it isn't sparkling yet but I have made some progress.

I got back home, had my protein shake and took my vitamins (which I sweat when I try to take them because they are HUGE!).  I decided that my butt was healed enough to get on my bike and try it out.  I figured, I'll just go around the block once and then come home and clean.

I set out and it was like I entered a whole new world.  This world is a magical world full of wind and excitement.  I just know people were saying, "why the heck is she smiling?" when they passed me in their cars.  I was smiling!  It was F+U+N!  Never thought I'd say that ever about working out. 

I LOVE riding a bike.  I never thought I'd get back on a bike.  NEVER!  I tried a few years ago and couldn't do it (because I was fat and out of shape and had no leg muscles what so ever).

I went for about 30-45 minutes (forgot to see what time it was when I left).  Then came home and watched Dr. Oz (love him).

So now I sit with a partially clean house, laundry to be done, dishes to clean, and all I want to do is get back on my bike and ride far far away (even if it is crazy hot outside). 

Why am I so motivated to work out, eat right, and lose weight?  Why can't I be this motivated to clean the darn house?  I hate cleaning, I've always hated cleaning.  My body starts getting sleepy every time I try to get up and clean.

And on that note... I guess it's time to get up and finish... or try to finish cleaning for the day before getting the kids from daycare.

And the winner is...

It's Monday, time to announce the winner of my little giveaway.

Congrats to: JoBee

Thanks for following my blog.  Not sure how to get your address, since this is my first time to do a giveaway.  If you comment here then we can e-mail back and forth the details.  :)

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Back in the day

Back in the day I use to weigh 110-115 at my lowest.  Here's pictures of my ultimate goal.  This will take some time but in a few years I may just get there.

This is me (hard to believe huh?) my senior year of high school. 1999
This is another senior year pic.
When I got married.  August 9, 2003 (I sure hope I got the date right...)  :P  I think I was 160ish?
Out on the late on our honeymoon.
 I'm sure since having 2 children that my body may never go back to the way it was.  Maybe I can get close.  I am so ready, so motivated, so excited, so inspired, to lose this weight and KEEP it off.

Week 10?

I'm not sure what week I'm on.  I think I'm either finished with week 10 or just starting week 10.

It is so HOT today!  I really want to get out and ride my bike but 1.  I'm SO SORE and 2. It's SO HOT.  I may try later to just go around in the neighborhood (if my butt can take it).

We took the kids to Chuck E Cheese today for a Birthday party.  I didn't eat any pizza (wasn't tempted to, it didn't really look good) and I didn't eat a cupcake (I can pass up sweets any day of the week).  So YAY for that.  I have a watermelon (personal size) in the fridge screaming my name!  I sure hope I haven't waited too long to eat it.  I may do that after I ride my bike.

I had my husband take a picture of be before we left to go to the birthday party (oh and I didn't cringe when my sister told me to sit next to the cute little birthday boy and get my picture made with him... wonder how that turned out).

So, since all the pictures out here that I've posted have been of me all hot and sweaty, no makeup, in spandex.  Here is a picture of me (ha, I'm wearing spandex leggings) in a new dress I got the other day at TJ Maxx for like 12 bucks.

Poo you can't see my freshly painted toes.

Here's a picture of my toes (got them done when I hit the 20 pounds lost mark a few days ago).  :)
Oh and for another comparison, here is me in my "tu-tu prom dress" I made for a party back when I started my journey (I might have posted this already but I can't remember).
Oh and I would like to add that I tried on some old clothes today (even put my jeans that I usually wear on) and some of the clothes I couldn't wear before don't fit anymore!  I was a size 18 and I think I'm at a 14/16 now.  WOOHOO! I tried on a size 14 pair of jeans and they fit.  Kinda snug but wearable for sure.  Such a great motivation!

What 20 pounds of loss looks like...

Ok so some of you have been asking for me to take pictures of my progression.  I have been doing that... I just haven't put them on here in a while.  So, here we go.  The pictures on the left are of me- 204 pounds.  The ones on the right are of me today- 183 (that's right people, 1 more pound down) pounds.

I can really tell that my boobs are getting smaller and you can start to see that my neck and jaw is starting to show. 

I can tell that I'm standing up taller and there is more room under my arms (they don't touch my fat on my sides).

I'm standing up taller (probably because I don't have as much weight in the front), my butt is getting smaller (it doesn't go up my back), I have shoulder bones, my arms aren't as fat, my belly still sticks out but not as much, oh and my fingers might be a bit thinner.

My back is the most drastic change in my opinion.  You can see that my fat rolls are going down, you can tell that my legs and hips are getting smaller (there's room in between my legs), I don't have so much fat on my back (and it has nice color).  :)

So there you have it.  I'm starting to notice a difference from May until now.  I'm proud of how far I've come and can't wait to go even farther with my weight loss. :) Oh and did you notice that I now smile in my pictures?

Starting weight: 204
Current weight: 183
Pounds lost: 21
Pounds left to lose before first goal: 13 (26 days left, you think I can do it?  Oh heck yeah and then some!)

Oh and have I kept the weight I lost from the cabbage soup diet off?  YES and then some!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Bike Riding

Yesterday a friend messaged me to see if I wanted to go for a bike ride out at a nearby lake trail.  We planned to meet at 6am and ride.  I was excited and nervous.  I haven't gotten on a bike since... well I think I bought a bike in college but didn't ride it much.

So I tried to go to bed early but that was a big FAIL.  I didn't go to sleep until after 1am and woke up at around 5am!  Drug myself out of bed, drank a protein shake, got some water from the store, and met her to ride.

Oh and did I mention that I have nothing as far as riding gear?  No bike and no helmet.  She let me borrow her husbands bike and helmet (sorry to her husband for sweating profusely in his helmet!).

I was nervous but the second I got on the bike I knew just what to do.  I wasn't real wobbly at all.  She was talking to me about gears and I had totally forgotten what that was all about.  I don't think I ever got use to changing gears the whole ride... but that's ok.

So we got started and I was tired before we got on the trail!  HA!  But I kept going a few more minutes and we stopped for a water break when we got on the actual trail (like right when we got there!).  I'm not really out of shape I'd say but this is a different workout and my body isn't use to it.  I drank some water and we kept going.

It was so nice, not hot, not bright, just right for riding.

I pushed myself up hills and then let myself glide downhill (umm that's the best part).  It took us about 30-40 minutes to get to our turning point (with a few breaks here and there) and then!!!...

We stopped and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack.  I started getting nauseous and felt sick to my stomach.  So we sat down.  I felt bad that I was going "riding" with her and I couldn't keep up, couldn't push myself any harder, I felt like I was not giving her a good ride.  After talking for a while and drinking some water and eating a couple of crackers my heart didn't feel like it was going to jump out of my chest and run away.  I felt better and we got back up to ride back.

I rode for a while until we got to some hills that I just couldn't push myself to go up and we walked a bit with our bikes.  EMBARRASSING!  Here come some other bikers, other runners just zooming past us WALKING our bikes.  Oh well, at least I was out doing something good for my body, right?  :)

Oh and I never knew so many people got up so very early to ride their bike or go for a run or walk.  Good job healthy people.  I'm glad I'm joining that new world.  I'm going to attempt to get up at 6am every day this week and go for a walk.  That's what Dr. Oz says to do, work out early in the morning.  I'm NOT a morning person but for 1 week I'll give myself that challenge, starting today!

So anyway, eventually we got to some downhill parts and zoomed through them.  It didn't seem like it took us as long to get back to the car.  Maybe I was tired and pushing myself a little harder knowing that I could get in my car and try to breath normal again.

I enjoyed my ride.  I'm mad at my body for giving out on me and not letting me push harder and ride more.  But I guess I did good for my first bike ride.

I love that here it is barely 8am and I'm done with my workout for the day.  I'll probably go walking tonight.

So there it is, the uncensored story of my first bike ride!  Just makes me want to get a bike and push myself even harder to learn to ride.

(don't forget about my little giveaway.  Click here)

UPDATE:  MY BUTT BONES ACHE!  I can't sit without them hurting.  Why oh why can't they make decent seats on bikes?  I went to my mom's house and brought home my bike and aired it up and got me a new cushy seat cover.  I can't wait to ride... after my butt heals.  :)

Friday, July 8, 2011


Ok followers of my blog.  It's time for a giveaway.  Why?  Because I hit the 20 pound mark and because I owe it all (well some) to the readers of my blog.

Here's what you will get!  You will get these 2 metal wall thingies I got from Hobby Lobby.  I know, not very exciting but I thought they were cute and went along with losing weight.  :)

Here's how to enter. You have 3 ways to get your name entered (make sure you post a comment for each of the following)

1.  Follow my blog (comment that you follow my blog)
2.  Share my blog either on your blog or on facebook and leave a comment on my blog saying you did that.
3.  Tell me one fantastic health tip you have learned or tell me anything about weight loss you have found helpful.

That's it.  Simple.  Thanks for following my blog and helping me on my journey to finding my inner skinny girl!  :)  I will chose a winner on either Sunday or Monday, so you have all weekend to see this and comment below.

On your mark, get set, go!

Weigh in

Good morning blogging world.  Today is my weigh in for the cabbage soup diet.

Starting weight before starting cabbage soup diet: 189
This morning's weight: 184
Pounds lost this week: 5

But here's the super good news.

Starting weight: 204
Current weight: 184
Pounds lost: 20!!!

I'm down 20 pounds!  So... in the next few days I will be coming up with a giveaway.  So stay tuned and look for how to enter my giveaway.  I've never done one before so I'm super excited to do it!

Thank you to all my viewers.  Thank you to everyone who comments to me.  You guys are what's helping me stay motivated.  Without this blog and without your support I don't think I would have lost as much as I have in the past 2 months.  :)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

My Plan for the next few weeks

I ate the last bowl (still have some left) of cabbage soup tonight!  I made it!

Today got me thinking about what I'm going to do after this is over.  I've decided (as mentioned in an earlier post) that I'm going to start a high protein, low carb, low calorie, low sugar "lifestyle change".  I don't have any books or any "diet" specifically.  I just know that on the day when I could eat meat this week, I wasn't hungry and wasn't constantly searching for something to eat.  I felt satisfied and the protein stayed with me a very long time.

I plan to eat unlimited amounts of veggies, eat fresh fruit (smoothies) and eat protein.  I haven't missed having dairy and breads so I think I will just stay away from those for the most part (won't be obsessed about it).

So, I got myself a blender (see previous post) and went to GNC this afternoon and bought me a protein shake mix and vitamins.

I had no idea what to get when I walked in but thankfully the guy was really nice and helped me rather quickly get something that sounded like what I needed (or at least he seemed to know what he was talking about, he could have been blowing smoke up my ass but I felt like he was educated in what I would be purchasing).  I've read reviews online about it and it appears that what he got me was a very good mix.  I have no idea about all of the things in it but he said it was the best tasting, lowest calories, and good protein mix.  So we shall see tomorrow.  Here is what I got:

I was also hooked up with these vitamins:

I like the little packets.  It was on sale.  We'll see how that goes.  
They also gave me a little sample of their "diet" pill.  I dunno if it will help but I don't think a few doses would hurt.  :)  I think it's probably mainly a caffeine pill so I'm not sure I'd ever buy it.

I'm really a newbie when it comes to vitamins and protein shakes.  Hopefully I can do some research and learn a bit more.

Tomorrow I will do my final weigh in for the cabbage soup diet and let everyone know how much I lost on this week long diet.

Until we meet again...

Looking ahead...

I'm looking ahead into the next weeks of this finding my skinny girl journey and decided that I wanted to start making protein shakes and smoothies for my breakfast/lunch.

So I went to the store and got me this blender.  I've been reading some reviews and hearing from people I know via Facebook and they seems to like this one (might not have the exact same one).  I'm excited to start trying different recipes and blending things.  :)

It's got to be better than our old Hamilton Beach blender we had a long time ago.

So I'm excited.  Now I just need advice on what kind of protein shake stuff do I get?  I'm thinking of going to GNC later today or tomorrow and getting something.  I want high protein, low sugar, lower calories.  I haven't a clue as to what to get.  Anyone here drink protein shakes/smoothies?

I'm new to this world.

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