I'm lost. I've lost my desire and my motivation to lose this weight. :/ Maybe it's the stress of starting back to work? Maybe I'm stuck in a funk? Maybe it's the weather? Whatever it is is causing me to just want to forget losing weight and go back to my old ways.
I don't want to go back to my old ways! I want to have that burning desire to lose this weight... I just can't seem to find it.
I think part of it could be that I'm not counting calories? I haven't done that since Thursday. I need to get back to doing that!
I am not yet at my goal and can't seem to see myself any further along. I haven't lost any pounds in a while and it's quite frusterating! I seem to be stuck and I know it's my fault. I haven't worked out to the best of my ability, I haven't eaten to the best of my ability. I am just not where I need to be.
What is it going to take to get me there? Another round of cabbage soup to jump start me back? No!
I'm just going to have to dig deep and get my act together. I'm sure you are sick of hearing that! But somewhere deep inside me is that skinny girl who wants to come out. I found her for a good 11 weeks but she is disapearing and I can't seem to find that girl.
It's not like the fat girl is taking over... but I guess she is if I'm not working out, not counting calories, and not losing weight.
Oh well, I start back to work tomorrow. Maybe that will help me get out of my funk. I'll be surrounded by people who are constantly supporting me in this journey and I'll be starting a group of people who are wanting to lose some weight and get healthy too.
I've got a good 40 pounds more to lose. That's all. I can do it. I want to do it. I'm just not doing it right now. I'm frustrated with myself!