So the last time I blogged I said I was going to get up and put my workout clothes and shoes on as a start. Well after I posted, I got up and put my gear on. After getting the kids to bed I forced myself to go for a walk/run. I did it! I had to hold my pants up the entire time I ran because they kept sliding down. I guess it's time for a size smaller... though I'm sure in a few months they will be back on me with an ever growing belly.
I haven't walked since and I keep eating crap. I have GOT to do something! I get frusterated at myself but it is my fault if I gain weight back and it's my fault alone if I fall completely off the weight loss wagon.
I am hoping that after the first stage of this pregnancy is over that I can get back up and do something. I have been sick, tired, and if I eat a little constantly I feel ok. So that's what I've been doing, eating constantly. Not everything I put in my mouth is crap, but whatever doesn't make me want to throw up ends up going in. :) I have noticed that if I eat a yogurt and a banana in the morning that I feel better until lunch. I didn't do that today and I've felt off. Could be a fluke but whatever helps I'm going to try.
I am now home for the weekend and good thing it's the weekend because I'm sick sick sick. I went to be last night crying a little because my throat hurt so darn bad. I woke up this morning to the same soreness but after having some hot tea (decaf) it soothed it enough for a while.
I feel like I'm already starting to show. I mean, it's only been a year and a half since I was last pregnant, my body knows what to do with this 3rd one. I asked another friend who's pregnant with her 3rd how far along she was when she started to notice and she said about 2 and a half months. I'll be 10 weeks tomorrow. So I'm sure I'm going to start wearing maternity clothing soon.
What a great feeling is that my size 14's are still a bit big on me. :) I really notice in my legs and butt how lose things fit.
I'm sure I'm gaining weight. I mean I can't go from eating 1000 calories or so to not counting and eating more and NOT gain weight. I will make a big effort this week to make sure the things that go in my mouth are healthy and not crap. I am going to start forcing myself to work out at least 2-3 times a week. That would be a start in the right direction and I know I need to get back into things.
What really makes me a bit inspired are the people I inspired to start doing something about their health and life. What really makes me happy is when I hear about friends who are losing weight and working out because of me. How can I let them down by gaining all my weight back? How can I let them down by eating crap and not caring and giving up? I can't and I won't so I must get back up on the horse and ride.
They say (Oh like Dr. Oz or something) not to start a diet on Monday for some reason but I think I may challenge myself to start back on a more strict healthy diet and exercise on Monday.
My first doctors appointment is on Monday. So maybe by the next time I go, I will have lost weight instead of gaining. :)
Anyway, don't give up fat people, keep it up. Reach down inside of you and find that inner skinny person that wants to come out and fight for your life, your health, and your happiness.
As for me, I need to listen to my own darn advice and do something. Just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean I can't continue to be healthy and lose weight. So somehow I've got to reach down deep inside me and make a change.... I hope that I can do that soon...
Until we meet again...