Well I have decided that I will not be running in my 5K I signed up for a while back tomorrow. :/ I haven't worked out in a while and just don't want to look like a fool. I feel like crap and have absolutely no energy. Oh and what wonderful weather it would have been too. So many people said, "It's going to be too hot!" But looks like the weather tomorrow is in the 70's! REALLY? It has been in the 90's for forever!
I'm going to try and get my ass up and walk in a couple of hours. I may just go ahead and get my workout clothes on so I won't have an excuse later.
I gave myself an excuse the other day because I had left my ipod at school and wouldn't have music so I didn't go. LAME!
I brought it home the next day so I wouldn't have that lame excuse again.
I keep getting a twinge of desire to get my butt into gear and get back out there. I'm sure that will make me feel better... if I don't throw up on myself. I have a constant feeling of nausea. That sucks!
So I'm 9 weeks today. I'm ready for this 1st trimester to be over. I feel so out of it and have no energy whatsoever. I'm done feeling this way for sure.
I am done with the lame excuses. I am done blaming my lack of working out on being pregnant. I'm done blaming my terrible eating habits on being pregnant.
So something must change in me. Lately every time I post, I tell you at the end that I am going to get up and work out and then I do nothing. What a good lier I am huh?
Well I am not going to say that I WILL workout today but I will say that I am going to put my workout clothes on in hopes that I can convince myself to do something.
Children- though this is my "losing weight motivational blog" (Sorry it hasn't been that... but it will again be this some day), I wanted to just mention the two children I have for a minute. Usually I am DONE being a mother by this time on a Sunday and look forward to sending them to daycare. The past week (maybe more maybe less) I have seen my children as CUTE and incredibly loveable, huggable, squeezable. Yes at times I am ready for their nap or bed time but lately I just can't stand how stinkin cute they are. Everything they do is so sweet. Maybe it's the pregnancy? Maybe I'm being sentimental? I don't know what it is but I feel such joy and happiness from my children and can't help but want to be around them. I have a feeling that it's the hormones running through my body causing me to be all emotional. Either way, I love my children and wouldn't trade them for anything in this world.
Oh and did I mention that my sister just had her 4th child. Seeing that baby and holding that 7 pound itty bitty sure did help me feel a twinge of excitement for what's to come. I mean, I can't be upset about it much longer. I must embrace what's to come and some how get over the fact that this child that wasn't planned and wasn't meant to be... will be and this child will be loved. :)
Ok, so time to go get my darn workout outfit on... let's hope it still fits! :) WISH ME LUCK!