Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Your comments keep me going...

Good day today.  I worked out and ate good.

Today we had a yummy lunch provided by our parents who come to school to learn English and learn how to help their children in school.  It was FANTASTIC!  To think that the school I teach in is a high poverty school and these parents spent their own money and time to feed us in appreciation was beyond amazing.  I love these children and their parents and it means so much to me.  This is why I do what I do.  I love teaching (not always, there are tough days) and I love seeing the spark in the little kiddos eyes when it finally clicks.  Anyway, these parents are amazing!

So this was my lunch today (yummy chicken and peppers, rice, salad, and fresh fruit)
It was hard to keep myself from going back for more but I didn't.  The salsa was so spicy and fresh and good.  :)

So, today was a success in eating.  For snack tonight I'm going to have me a personal watermelon!  I had to wait until the children went to bed because I AIN'T SHARING!  :P

After school I put on my workout gear and went to a technology meeting and then worked out with some teachers.  Man, they are doing great.  I had to stop quite a lot (because it was the same crazy workout we did yesterday and I was sore!!!) and they just kept trucking along.  WAY TO GO!

It keeps me motivated to have other people around me motivated to lose weight and get in shape.  :)

What also keeps me going is having other people comment on my progress.  I feel quite shy when people make comments.  I feel like I need to point out my faults because honey, there are a lot!  I am making progress and it is exciting and I know it's not going to happen overnight.

To realize that others are seeing a difference and are excited for me... keeps me trucking along and I guess, it holds me accountable.

You can't do it by yourself.  It's hard to lose weight alone because who's there to stop that fat girl from eating that cookie or brownie or box of donuts?  I mean, you could try to do it on your own but it sure does make things a whole lot easier when you have support around you.

It makes me happy when my husband notices (and comnents) on the difference and is proud of me.  Today he told me he could wrap his arms around me more when he hugged me goodbye before work.  :)

It makes me feel successful when I have other people tell me that they can see a difference.  Today I was getting the kids from daycare and one of the teachers there was saying how she could really tell and was a bit jealous about it!  :)  We talked for a while.  She just kept asking me what I was doing and how much I had lost and how she wanted to lose weight.

It helps that my father-in-law is also trying to lose weight and it helps that we help each other plug in our calories, talk about exercising, and even talk about poop.... which I could go into further but I'll spare you the details.  :)  It's nice to have such an open relationship!  HA!

So, my point for today is to get yourself a support group.  Tell at least 5 people that you are losing weight and have them cheer you on or join you.  :D

So many people are asking me, "what are you doing?"  "are you eating?"

What am I doing?  Counting calories, no sugary drinks, no fried foods, not a lot of dairy, I don't eat a lot of deserts unless I'm craving something (everything in serious moderation!), logging everything in on my fitness pal, and working out as much as I can.   

NO fad diet pills,  NO silly diets

Am I eating?  Yes

Here's a typical day:

Breakfast: Protein shake (200 calories) EVERY DAY! (minus the weekend- I'll eat out or have an egg mcmuffin from McDonalds- egg white mcmuffin is good too)

Lunch: Something smallish, around 300-400 calories (like a lean pocket and some edemame sp?)

Dinner: I like to stay around 500-600 calories, sometimes more, sometimes less

Snacks:  If my body is hungry then I'll have a protein shake after a workout (I have an Isolate protein shake to replenish what I've lost working out- 150 calories), or I may grab a fiber one bar or fiber one brownie (about 90-140 calories) or a few nuts.

So that puts be right around 1100-1200 a day.

Oh and WATER WATER WATER!  I carry my water with me everywhere, it reminds me to drink!  Today, I think I drank a bit too much (which is good... but not so good when you are trapped with 20 little kids to watch) and was about to burst until I found a teacher in the hall to watch my kids (they were having a bathroom break)  :)  I'm not sure how much water I drink a day but enough to keep me peeing!

Then I'll workout and usually burn around 300-700 calories depending on what I do and for how long and hard I workout. (and just because I burned those calories, doesn't mean I can have more for the day, those are bonus calories- not added to my 1200, make sense?)

EDIT!  After reading into "eating back calories" I have sense learned that I'm doing things WRONG!  I'm going to try to eat back what I burn tomorrow!!!  We'll see if that helps me lose more weight!

So, it isn't hard to do, you just have to have patience, dedication, the right mind set, a support group, and a happy inner skinny girl cheering you on.  :)

It was hard the first few days because I felt hungry but now I can't eat more without feeling full.  My stomach was so stretched out I guess from eating so much food but now it isn't as big (on the inside) because I went through a few days of wanting to eat but keeping myself from eating too much, make sense?

Oh and I put a small amount of food (a normal portion) on my plate.  If I finish that, I'll wait about 10 minutes before going back for seconds and usually I'm satisfied by then and don't go back for more.

So, thank you everyone who has commented about me losing weight, and thank you everyone who has said I was your motivation to begin working out and losing weight.  It makes a difference in my journey!  :)

Until we meet again- now go drink a big glass of water or 2!

Wow this was long... guess it's easier to blog when the children are in bed.  Time for some watermelon!  :)

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Then and Now- sizes

Ok so I have been wearing an old bra the past week or so and didn't look at the size until today.  My nursing bra I had been wearing since having Rylan was a 42DD.  Today I put it on and it was HUGE!  So, I looked at the size of my old/current bra I'm wearing and it's a 38D.  :)  So that's a sure sign that the girls are shrinking!

I have also been wearing my size 14 jeans that a friend gave me when she lost a lot of weight (her "fat" pants) and I used to not be able to button them under my fat but now I can button them OVER my belly!  So that just shows that my tummy is shrinking (might not be tightening up, still squishy)!

I don't know why this shocks me every time.  I mean, I know I'm down 33.5 pounds since having a baby and 15 pounds since March but I just suprise myself every day. 

I think its about time for me to start taking comparison pics!  I wish I had a good picture of me right after I had baby.... hold on... I just might...

Ok, I know I had just had a baby the day before but here I am back in March, 30th 2012:

YUCK!  But then again... I had just had a baby!  My arms are HUGE!  My tummy is too... but this is 1 day postpartum.

Here I am April 2012 going to Moxie Mama Mom prom- I made this out of duct tape!  :)  But look at those girls!  They are huge! 
So, now I need to take a comparison picture just to see how I looked then to how I look now and then how I looked before I got pregnant to how I look now. 

Well I did take pictures of me but not much to show... I look about the same as I did the last time I lost weight.  So I'll wait to do more comparison pics once I lose more weight.  :)

Time to take the kids to get their hair cut! 

Friday, May 3, 2013

Skinny girl obsessed!

Well it's Friday night and no lives in Candy Crush... what's a girl to do?  :)

This has been a GREAT week for weightloss!  Not so much in working out because of such a busy afternoon schedule but I managed to get a few days in.

I started getting frustrated because I kept waking up and seeing the same dang number on the scale.  Clothes don't lie that I'm losing weight but the scale just wasn't moving (and it had only been a little over a week but I'm used to seeing it move every 3-4 days).

So, after getting frustrated I drank a ton of water and peed ALL DAY LONG!  The next day, poof 1 pound lighter!  HA!

Then I woke up this morning and I was down another 1.5 pounds!  I had to take a second look because it was early and I thought I read the scale wrong.  :)

So that brings my total pounds lost to 15 pounds since starting round 3... at the end of March.


I am eating good but having a hard time eating anything that I have no idea how many calories are in it or having an "off" day... it's hard to force myself to eat more than 1200 calories (and most days I'm under).

I have told myself that it's ok to eat more just one day but then I can't seem to put the food in my mouth.

For instance, I took Conner to the psychiatrist the other day to get him some medicine (and we ended up putting him on some anxiety medicine... which is starting to give me more anxiety than him... but that's another story).

Anyway, after his appointment I took him to Dairy Queen to have dinner.  I got him a kids meal and couldn't figure out what I wanted/could eat so I ended up not getting anything and thinking about it while he played and ate his food.

So... as he was playing, I got on my fitness pal and looked up calories and got frustrated because I couldn't find what I wanted to get.  Eventually I gave up and got a kids meal and had a kids ice cream cone for desert (hell it comes with the kids meal, couldn't let that go to waste).  I felt guilty for eating the ice cream cone! 

I should have just ordered whatever and had whatever but my little bitch skinny girl wouldn't let me... it has kinda become an obsession to know exactly what I'm putting in my body and how many calories and fat and sodium and everything else in food before I eat one dang bite.

I wish I could just have an "off" day and maybe I will but right now I'm quite scared of gaining it all back... which I know one day won't gain it all back.

Not sure that makes sense, but I write that to say, this skinny girl inside me is a bit obsessed with losing weight.  It's on my mind constantly, which I guess is good to some extent.... but this skinny girl kinda needs to chill out just a little bit!

Anyway,  I have noticed 3 areas of my body that are changing.

1.  BOOBS- of course they are the first to go and really... I'm ok with that!  Jason was the first to notice them disapearing (granted they are still huge!  Just not as huge and they don't seem to wrap all the way around my back!  HA!

2.  BELLY- though it isn't going away nearly as fast as I'd like (I know... slow and steady), it isn't as "bloated."  It's still that squishy baby fat but when I put on a tight shirt to suck it all in, it's starting to not poke out as bad.

3.  BUTT-  Didn't really realize it until a friend said my tushy looked tiny (I think she was exagerating!) in the hallway at school today.  And when I bend down, my pants don't show my butt crack as much!  LOL!

Conner asked me today, "mommy, are you not fat anymore?"  I thought it was a compliment but then he said, "cause I don't want to stay at school that long anymore!"  So what he thought was because I didn't stay and work out today, that I must have been done trying to lose weight!  Silly kid!

Losing weight is the best accomplishment because I did it!  I was the one who took charge of my health!  I just look forward to getting to my first little mini goal of 180 and then setting another goal from there (5 pounds away).

So, here's my pep talk- drink your dang water, get off your lazy butt and do something for YOU!  It's in your mind, if your mind isn't ready to lose the weight, then you aren't going to lose it.  I went through months of trying to get back on the weight loss journey and change my life but then I just wasn't feeling it and gave up.  I feel it on the inside now and there's nothing that's gonna stop me this time!  I am NOT getting pregnant this time!  (I have got to get myself fixed!)

:)  Have a great Friday night, there was something else I wanted to say... but I can't remember because Conner is in here playing his game and I can't think straight anymore!

Until next time (and it might be tonight if I remember what I was going to say)...

(oh and it snowed in MAY!  How crazy is that)

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