I was able to get more of the lunch shake down today. I peeled the apple and cucumber so it wasn't as bad of a texture.
I know I've probably lost a lot of water weight but heck, I guess I was holding onto a lot of water weight too.
Weight was down (as mentioned earlier) to 169 this morning.
That means my total weight loss is up to 49.5 pounds. I'm just a half pound away from having lost 50 pounds!
I was looking back at some pictures on facebook and kept asking Jason, "Do I look like this now? Does my face look like this?" He kept saying, "No, it's much skinnier now."
I don't really know what I look like... does that make sense?
I do know that the other day when I was getting the kids happy meals at McDonald's I looked at my reflection in the window and didn't get discusted! I was actually happy with what I saw looking back at me.
I can see the skinny girl more now than the fat girl looking at me. I see a happy girl in the window now. I don't see a sad depressed fat girl who can't stand to look at herself.
What a great feeling that is! WHAT A GREAT FEELING THAT IS!
I get a little giddy inside thinking about how much closer I am to reaching my goal. Really, I haven't had a goal in mind... or an ultimate goal but I've kinda set it at 145. Or, to be in a size 8 maybe? 6? But I don't know what weight is gonna put me there and what I'll look like when I get there.
My ultimate goal I guess is to be completely happy and satisfied with my body. To be able to look at myself in the mirror naked and like what I see.
Not sure when that's going to happen. But I'm getting closer.
My belly still pooches out but it doesn't hang over anymore. I don't wear my pants under that belly flap anymore. I'm almost comfortable tucking in a shirt and being able to see my belt!!!
I can't remember when the last time I was able to see my belt! HA!
I know I've said these things already a lot but I still get shocked every time I step on the scale and I don't see a number starting with a 2!
I asked Conner today how much he thought I weighed (because he was proud that he gained a pound today) and he said "184." CLOSE! Ha! It seems like just yesterday I was 184. :)
I am for sure out of the 80's and not 100% sure I'm out of the 70's yet but there's hope! Seeing that 6 there today was so exciting! :)
So bring on the 60's. Let's hope they go quickly!
Here are some pictures...
|May 2010- 3 months after Lauren was born|
|May 2010- After Lauren was born.|
|Sept. 2010- 7 months after Lauren was born.|
|July 2011- When I first lost weight- got down to 184 I think.|
|March 30, 2013- Starting to lose some weight.|
|Wedding day- I can't remember how much I weighed then.|
|Senior Year of highschool- 1999- would love to be that skinny again- 115ish size 0-4?!|
Fun to walk down memory lane every now and then... back to the reality now... screaming children! Ugh!