Tuesday, March 3, 2020

2020 Here we go!

I'm BACK! Again... it's been a while since I've blogged... it's been a while since I was healthy too.

So here we go. I am trying to get myself in the right mindset to do this journey again.

The good part is- I have my husband with me in this journey! We are BOTH going to work on losing weight and getting healthy. He has some health problems anyway and after going to the doctor with him and talking to his stomach doctor (big long word)... she recommended the KETO diet for him! He lost a lot of weight on it the last time we did it (jerk- I didn't)... so I think it will be good to give it a try again.

To kickstart my new journey, I am doing the Cabbage Soup diet again. Today is day 2. Yesterday, I didn't feel like eating much and didn't end up having a bowl of soup until 6pm! That's what happens when you take sudafed and your ADD meds! LOL Got so busy that I didn't feel like eating. Wish that would happen more often.

Anywho, let's talk about the best parts about losing weight and feeling healthy again...

1. I'll be able to breathe! I can't even put my damn shoes on without feeling like I'm going to die. That's probably why I wear birkenstocks every day!

2. I'll be able to wipe my ass easier! Let me tell you something, I never thought that a simple thing like wiping your butt would be so hard to do when you're fat! Probably TMI but ya know, I like to keep it real.

3. I'll be able to walk into regular stores and not feel like everyone is looking at me. I hate that feeling of "why the hell are you in here, you can't fit into anything we have" Like when you are bigger than the largest size LEGGINGS THAT THEY CARRY THEN YOU KNOW SOMETHING'S GOTTA CHANGE! I honestly have NO idea what size pants I wear. I haven't purchased any new jeans or pants in a few years. I wear leggings or my husbands shorts. YES! MY HUSBAND AND I CAN WEAR THE SAME CLOTHES! Some of his clothes are actually too tight for me. :(

Oh there's probably more I could add to this list but we will change our focus for a bit...

The other most important reason this go round is my relationship with my husband. Bless his heart he has to put up with all my bullshit... I don't know how he does it day after day after day!

BUT! I don't feel sexy. I don't want him to see me naked. I did cook breakfast for him naked the other day but my boobs started sweating and my legs were rubbing together. YUCK! But he didn't mind, he liked it. I just want to get to the point where I am comfortable in my own skin.

I ordered some plus size lingerie today. I know my husband has a thing about naughty school girls... so I'm gonna be one for him for his Birthday. :D I kept telling myself that if it comes in and it doesn't fit then at least I know I'm working on losing weight and it will fit one day.

Maybe I should order a REGULAR sized one and let that be a goal!

Back to sex.. When you're fat, sex is a really really really hard thing to do... your bellies touch, you get out of breath really fast and you can't flip over quick or get into other positions easily or at all... I look more like a beached whale trying to flip over. lol

I remember on our 10th wedding anniversary, I had lost a lot of weight and HOLY SMOKES sex was great! So I want to get back to that...

Anyway, enough horny tree frog talk...

I just want to go back to what I've always said- losing weight is 99% mental and 1% physical... I mean the physical stuff is important but you can't really do it if your mind isn't in it.

I feel like my inner skinny girl is starting to come forward and isn't being sat on by the inner fat girl... I think my motivation and desire to lose weight it starting to happen... I'm not 100% committed yet.

I'm doing this cabbage soup diet because I know that it is only for a week and I can survive one week! Then once I survive one week, I know that I can get into healthy eating and get back into going KETO.

Anyway, I'm tired so I'm gonna go take a nap.

Sorry this wasn't as entertaining as some of my other posts. ;P

Until we meet again.

Weight- 245.5

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